I'm falling in love with all these photo things again! I'm so short of money, but I'd rather spend the rest on this. Everything looks so different through the viewfinder, you know.

@темы: getting closer to the Union Jack, excited, invisible

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A сегодня приснилось, что у меня 3 татуировки. Одна, правда, в очень нестандартном месте, но вполне makes sense.

@темы: по Фрейду или по Юнгу?

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Lots of pain, still no gain

Today's been a physical disaster. I've hit my elbow, broken my fingernail to blood, hit my knee and a finger, then thrice hit my toes badly and a shower handle has fallen right on my head! It's 10p.m., I'm already in bed to end this damned day and I hope I won't fall of the bed.

Upd. I almost did. Twice.

@темы: getting closer to the Union Jack, casual

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What's the name for a falling-when-on-stairs phobia? Cause I'm afraid I have one...

@темы: getting closer to the Union Jack, по Фрейду или по Юнгу?

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Какой смысл во всей этой глупой беготне, если все равно нихера не получается?.. Лучше б я была обычной глупой блондой с обычными проблемами, было бы проще, честное слово! Мне кажется, ген неудачников передается по наследству.

@темы: invisible, slump, Багдад

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Christina Yang vs Divya Katdare. Who's for the win?

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Quentin Huff
Writers Anonymous: A 3 Step Program

[Step One: Resentment]
Hi, My name is Quentin.
I'm a write-a-holic.
I can't control it, can't curb
the urge to write.
I need help.
I want my life back.

[Step Two: Commitment]
I write poems on fast food napkins,
with toothpicks, using ketchup for ink.
I jot ideas for poems
on my arms and legs. When I run out of space,
I use my shoes.
I make motions
similar to Michael Jackson's moonwalk
when I need to erase.

I make up stories
while making love to my wife.
She left me. Who needs her?
She was suffocating my creativity.

I await submission replies
like an addict, hands trembling,
head shaking in disbelief.
Not another bout with rejection!
I'm manic depressive.
I'm happy to be here.
No I'm not.

I live for revision.
Instead of sex, I have poems.
I eat feedback.

[Step 3: Contentment]
As a recovering write-a-holic,
admitting my problem
has provided a much needed catharsis.
Joining this nurturing group has

(Excuse me,
but are you going to throw away that paper cup?
That's good paper!)

taught me to reconcile my past
and move forward.

@темы: getting closer to the Union Jack

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Сны гораздо интереснее кино бывают, знаете ли. Вот сегодня мне приснилось, что наша группа почти полным составом поселилась где-то вроде языкового лагеря. И в качестве препода по устной практике у нас назначили... хахаха, кого бы вы думали —  unrealized! XD На первое занятие Маша пришла с выражением "полный facepalm", а мы еще и стебемся: сидим, как первоклашки, и руки так же тянем, а Маша все еще facepalm, а потом уже ей и самой весело. В общем, я была бы и не против такого XD

Апд. Тогда же приснилось, что ты сменила ник на 'uc.'. ?!...

запись создана: 13.10.2010 в 17:20

@темы: по Фрейду или по Юнгу?

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My poor old Zenit hero is not that old & not that poor as well.

@темы: getting closer to the Union Jack, some cute things

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I know it's worth, I know it's promising. It's just me who's being stupid again.

@темы: getting closer to the Union Jack, Багдад

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Сегодня мне приснилось, 1) как меня сбил автобус и 2) счастливая Няшка. И второе было гораздо ярче и важнее первого.

@темы: по Фрейду или по Юнгу?

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God no, withdrawn and back on the same path again

@темы: getting closer to the Union Jack, invisible, Багдад

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Господи, сколько же бреда я выслушиваю каждый день

@темы: HATRED

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I've lost myself. I am not here.
This is not Romeo; he's some other where.

@темы: getting closer to the Union Jack, invisible, Багдад

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Когда вам везет больше: когда вы чего-то очень-очень хотите, или когда ничего не ждете, а оно само на вас сваливается?

@темы: мысли вслух

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Чистая вода, мягкий и большой диван и розетка возле него - это тоже кусочки счастья.
Каждое утро мне интересно, на какой странице интернета я заснула прошлой ночью. И вообще, жаль, что невозможно сфотографировать себя в момент засыпания.

П.С. Серьезно, у меня в ванной есть волшебное зеркало.

@темы: мысли вслух

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I have eyes of unstable colour. Most of the time they're deep green with a hint of hazelness. But today they are 3/5 hazel, 1/5 green and 1/5 grey. And this is gorgeous.

@темы: some cute things

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You can be born simple or you can be born me. Indeed.
Sometimes I think I want to get too much of it. I want some difficulties and obsticles and lots of things to do, otherwise I get bored. But I also want it simple, otherwise I feel small and pathetic and desperate. I want to change my hair colour, I'm not satisfied with my indefinite one. I want to change my nail polish colour, I'm not satisfied with the red one, with any of them, actually. I want to have an emotional meltdown, I want to be spontaneous. I want to be Christina Yang, I want to be brilliant, I want to work, I want to be not afraid of people. I want to like wine and to have a just-in-case pack of cigarettes in my bag. I want a red Citroen, and I want to want a bicycle, and my poor old Zenit hero repaired. I want to make beautiful photos, I want to write, stories, tales, poems, lyrics, life. I want inspiration. I want to learn how to draw and how to sing, though if I sing, it's literary ridiculous. I want to be pretty, I look pretty only in my and my love's bathroom mirrors. I want to be good for him. I want to cook well, I want to never run out of grapes, pepper, salmon and salty smoked cheese. I want to sleep well, to crawl under the blanket with my love when it's so damn cold as it is now and wake up beside him, I think I would love each morning then. I want to have enough will to get up early and make a cup of coffee and not to hurry and smile in the morning and do my make up every day. I want to be a blond, did I say that already? Oh right, I want to have a foreign language library, I want to have enough time and money, no, money and time to choose the items, clothes, nail polish, e-ve-ry-thing well. I want to have, no, to see chances and meet deadlines. I want to be more womanish, I want to wear romantic style clothes, I want enough money to wear romantic style clothes, cause, you know, they cost. I want colour tights and matching gloves. I want to like flowers, no, I want flowers to like me, usually they die in a couple of days here. I want to be taken seriously and I want to keep on making people laugh. I want to have a musician friend, cause these people think in a completely different way. I want to learn how to rely on my friends, cause they're great, but I'm not. I want not to get blind or handicapped and to have an eye surgery one day. I want never to run out of encouraging music and good movies and drink coffee at the cinema like I'm at home.
I want some love and peace and harmony for all. And I want you to like me. Is this really too much?..

@темы: мысли вслух, getting closer to the Union Jack, по Фрейду или по Юнгу?, invisible, monday morning blues, Багдад

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У меня есть новый безумно вкусный сыр, он почти закончился, а я не знаю, как он называется. И это настоящая трагедия.

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И все-таки у нас была где-то там мимолетная, мааааленькая и глупая мысль, что из поезда номер 78 к нам выйдет сама Дидра...

@темы: some cute things, people, абсурдности